slow jams, and love songs. when language fails, when you want to tell someone you love them, but knowing that those three syllables are just so short and, in certain contexts, can feel trite, you want to let them know in a more impactful way. to tell someone that you love them, and to also show them through song.
this was where my heart lied with 143. i wanted to play slow jams. i wanted people to think about love, to think about yearning, to think about being naughty, but overall, to know that this music will exist throughout time.
143 in its current state is no longer satisfying that itch for me, the love involved in a slow jam. to really sit inside the lyrics, between liner notes, under choruses and over bridges, to be enveloped in the melody, in the adlibs, in the whistle registers, to understand completely that it doesn’t even have to be about someone specific, to just love music about love.. this is all i ever cared about for 143.
i am on a path to returning to this idea, this crystallized understanding of love songs and r&b. i admit, the usual form for music appreciation (club nights, etc) is a muddy endeavor, and based on my past experience, i understand what it would take to be ‘succesful’ – and i want no part in it. however i’m trusting in my bare honesty for the concept that people will hear and understand and join in participation.